I have family and friends that I always LOVE, I have personality that nobody can handle.
AND I'm a crazylover in Camera!
My life is like a heartbeat machine, up and down so unpredictably. I'm single yet I don't see myself alone, as I call it freedom instead.
Music is definitely part of me.
Singing is my passion.
Take an U.F.O to visit me!
Stairs to UFO
& there you go!
April 8, 2013
昨天原本2小时车程的，我塞了5个小时车才回到这，因为今天的测验我不得不回来。结果她今天走了，永远的离我们而去，这些日子的折磨，心酸又帮不上忙，可以说是苦中加苦。她这一生的奉献我们都不会忘记，这辈子一路辛苦的走来，今天她安然的离开。感谢观世音菩萨，您实现了我不孝的祷告，就是尽快把她带走，今天她走了，我哭了。最后一次见面她是沉睡的，后悔为何没有把她唤醒，再累也再次看看我这孙女。我以为还会有机会…… 我错了，机会是不会有第二次。昨天的永别，就是最后的道别。还好这几天都有在她身边，陪着，看着，我总是忍不住要掉眼泪。因为太爱她了，看着她吃不下，讲不到话更别说起身走走坐坐，我心疼着，面笑着，说着我想说的话。“我爱您”，是我在她清醒的时候在她耳边说的，今天她走了，没有任何遗憾与牵挂…… 跟随着爷爷一起到另一个世界再续不了情……
♥ Monday, April 08, 2013
2012 一瞬间过去了，博客又老了一岁。刚发现没有为2012年给个终结，真够懒的。
2012 是大学的二年级，可悲的课业年初跌至谷底，没有Fail 啦，但确实是过去里最差的。年中后悔了，下了不少苦功，成绩算是提升了。 结果年尾因为手术后需要大量的休息来疗伤，再加上手术后的痛和一切的不自在，成绩只有中等。2012 没有什么目标也没有什么计划，最想要的就是如期毕业吧。这个不懂算不算是目标呢？
家呢……是有些改变了，人变了，和年头相比，可说是天渊之别的，现在总算有点家的感觉。这些年忍不住地咆哮上帝是听见的，那些痛彻心扉的日子捱过了，再不公平也罢了，反正现在给我的都是美好的。过去的日子刻骨铭心的，忘不了，换不了。这影响我一生的过去，塑造了独一无二的我，今天不伤不气，我感恩这一切。
朋友……我们这一家和以往一样，没有很亲密，大家有大家的朋友，也没有很在意，因为已经没有感觉所以都不会在意。一群肩并肩的朋友因为一段不应该考虑更别说开始的感情带来流言蜚语，打抱不平，对我精神上的折磨很深，甚至把我抵制(杯葛)了一些日子。可以原谅却不能忘记，那被拒之门外的日子锻炼了另一个我，现在对这一家我可以一笑而过，没有心疼没有感觉，没有灵魂的住在这一家。没有他们，我有了时间，还有一群爱我的朋友，懂得珍惜我的知己，把时间放在值得放的人身上会来得更快乐，更有意义。
伴侣……这个呢是我这年纪的人都在讨论的问题，大家都谈恋爱了，不是全部，但大部分肯定都会带着伴侣回来过年，而我还是像往年一样回答同一个问题 “你有男朋友了吗？” "还没！” 大家都很期待我有天牵着一个我爱的回来，看来又让他们失望了。目前应该还不会谈恋爱吧……
♥ Monday, April 08, 2013
July 12, 2012
我在寂寞的时候思想着，自省着，从排挤我的人身上学到了很多。因为我多了好多属于自己的时间，我能安静的阅读，我能安静的听我爱的音乐，这都是寂静才能赐予的吧。偶尔我也会无奈的想着，他们到底知不知道我已被他们伤得体无全肤了……
♥ Thursday, July 12, 2012
June 18, 2012
Hey, I'm finally here again after so long. It's Monday, I should have attended classes today, but..yupe, i didn't. As there's something more important to do than to attend those stupid classes - which is I really got no idea with what the lecturer BLABLABLA in front of the hall, SO, trust me, when it comes to exam, you will understand everything by your own.
Now, come back to the main point, what's the important things to do today? *Evil laugh* my sayang-sss came to Penang to pay errrr, mieeeee ooh Penang a visit last two days. They came on Saturday, yet I was sick due to the stupid haze these few days (a little bit fever, terrible flu and cough) and.. Damn it. I totally missed out the happy hour! Anyway, we met up on Sunday, it was like a makan trip, the whole day non-stop makan-ing the best food in Penang. We leaved to Ipoh around 1.30pm, dismissed after lunch. They went back to KL and me, to the DEAD TOWN -Kampar. Oh, Darl drove my car back to Ipoh this noon, the very first person who ever drive my car. Broke my only rule, but I trust her skill la. We had i very great weekend and now everything back to hell.
Now, come back to the main point, what's the important things to do today? *Evil laugh* my sayang-sss came to Penang to pay errrr, mieeeee ooh Penang a visit last two days. They came on Saturday, yet I was sick due to the stupid haze these few days (a little bit fever, terrible flu and cough) and.. Damn it. I totally missed out the happy hour! Anyway, we met up on Sunday, it was like a makan trip, the whole day non-stop makan-ing the best food in Penang. We leaved to Ipoh around 1.30pm, dismissed after lunch. They went back to KL and me, to the DEAD TOWN -Kampar. Oh, Darl drove my car back to Ipoh this noon, the very first person who ever drive my car. Broke my only rule, but I trust her skill la. We had i very great weekend and now everything back to hell.
♥ Monday, June 18, 2012
March 19, 2012
付出不需要回报，只要是快乐的，可是盲目的付出，还要是没被看好的，知道该抽身 的却还是放不下，还是奋不顾身的把头撞过去。是该检讨的，我检讨了，却还是不明白为何总是让人看不顺眼。也许是因为太多的过去，被改变的大家又回不到过去，而产生的后遗症。即使明知道那过去是委屈我的，只怪我一路死撑着，当大家知道的时候已经太迟了，连懊悔的话，安慰的话都被免了。
一而再 再而三的咬着牙关告诉自己要忍，更要大方，告诉自己他们以前不是这样的…我是做了前者，却做不到后者。因为即使人可以忍一百次，也不代表可以大方一百次。 比起其他人，我的忍耐度简直超标了。我坚信好人有好报的，我盼别人会用心去分析，去了解，看清楚我真的必须得到如此痛入心扉的对待…是我太天真还是别人已经不在乎？我很想知道原因，不明不白地受气，哪怕有天我真的会累会放弃。这是我不想有的结局，我正在努力，也请你们好好珍惜。因为当真的有那么一天我离开 了，我会很不舍，可是我不会再回头望。
因为被伤害的将会又是我…就算我是问心无愧…
♥ Monday, March 19, 2012
February 5, 2012
It's Feb of 2012 now. Haven't really greet myself Happy Chinese New Year yet it's already over. Not totally over yet actually, the first 15th days haven't reach but for me, it was like huh,cny? It was like..n years ago...
Everyone has gone back to their normal life, study one study, work one work, do nothing one do nothing.. And me? I'm the one who still studying after more than 10 years study life. What the HELL!! Attending lecture and tutorial classes everyday, reading million words, rushing assignments, projects and stupid presentations and midterm and final in order to get a pass on the particular subject. I really couldn't find a reason why I am studying and doing all these bullSh*t when I know I wouldn't remember anything I studied right after the exam. I bet everyone have the same thought as mine, but yet everyone still continue doing all these. @$%#!@& yeah, u gonna tell me this is path of LIFE?!
I hate study life. I hate working life, especially the 8 to 5. I've got no idea what I want to do in the future. I just want to have freedom and freedom and freedom and money come to me automatically. I wonder why technology can't make everyone rich.
Okay, fine! Forget about it. Do have a blessing 2012 and gong hei fiat choi!
♥ Sunday, February 05, 2012
January 9, 2012
2012 !
A brand new year!
Hope everything is going well and this year would better than the past!
Goodbye 2011 ;)
♥ Monday, January 09, 2012
November 27, 2011
回来了。只是我不想留在那是非地。
朋友之间是有些问题，一直埋在心底，是大家的心底。
我不在朋友之间闲语，我做我可以做的，我做我自己，
只是有时人还是会得寸进尺。那些闲言闲语我知道的，
还有那些伪装那些做作我又怎么会感觉不到。
只是除了沉默和容忍我还能怎样？
付出的真心得不到真诚的回报，
只怪自己样衰，总是让别人看不顺眼，我无言。
人总会有原则和地线，我不可能会为了那几句闲言闲语而改变，
删掉原则和降低地线。
就当做我自私也好，不友善也罢。
让大家闲言固然难受，你们可以为自己而不折手段，
我更要为自己的立场站得更稳。
朋友之间是有些问题，一直埋在心底，是大家的心底。
我不在朋友之间闲语，我做我可以做的，我做我自己，
只是有时人还是会得寸进尺。那些闲言闲语我知道的，
还有那些伪装那些做作我又怎么会感觉不到。
只是除了沉默和容忍我还能怎样？
付出的真心得不到真诚的回报，
只怪自己样衰，总是让别人看不顺眼，我无言。
人总会有原则和地线，我不可能会为了那几句闲言闲语而改变，
删掉原则和降低地线。
就当做我自私也好，不友善也罢。
让大家闲言固然难受，你们可以为自己而不折手段，
我更要为自己的立场站得更稳。
♥ Sunday, November 27, 2011
September 14, 2011
Hokkien lesson!
The word "Cincai" means whatever, means no comment, no objection.
It's used when you are really like"do what people like", "choose what people want" ..and you FOLLOW.
There's no opinion, no suggestion, no objection or any idea you can give after you spoke the word "cincai".
For example:
"Wanna eat what?" --Cincai!
"Eat porridge?" --Ok
"Or don't wan la, rice better!" --Alright.
(This is the right way the word "cincai" is use!)
Another example:
"Wanna eat what?" --Cincai!
"Porridge." --Don't want la,can't full!
"Rice lo"--Don't feel like eating rice today.
"Walao, I thought you said CINCAI!"
(This is the wrong way the word cincai is use!*You are just putting fire on other's head)
Please do make it clear before you do any mistake by using the word "cincai".
Lesson end.
♥ Wednesday, September 14, 2011
September 11, 2011
Yesterday was the first day of final exam, haih...I didn't do it well...
I don't know why...I've already done all the tutorial question, go through those notes slide by slide and I've done few sets of pass semester final exam paper! I do what I know, I ask what I confused! But when the final exam come...the questions did shocked me! I don't know to solve them! I'm panic...panic..still so panic...until I had made those mistake that I shouldn't!
I just can't do it well! I'm to score A! For my teacher, for me, myself, I ! Useless, I'm failed! I'm so stupid enough! I wish I could have another chance to do the paper again, but yes I know it's impossible! Felt so sorry to my teacher, she even spent her time to teach me at her house! Even though she was rushing to mark the exam paper...This is the last semester she teach me... I will not see her again after this... I just can't forgive myself...I'm sorry:(
♥ Sunday, September 11, 2011
September 4, 2011
Cute?? Hahahahaha!
Yes, I just draw it on my pretty fingers!
I was too bored , no outing, no chatting, no playing,
don't even yum cha with friends!
Only study study study! And playing with my fingers!
Final is around the corner, still doing the same for today,
keep studying for the whole day..
subject by subject, chapter by chapter,
page by page, sentences by sentences,
word by word, and alphabet by alphabet.
I might burst soon! very soon!
Grrrrrr...no choice! still need to study! I want to score! Although I know it's impossible to score with my limited knowledge.. but, haih..I don't want to lose! I don't want to be a loser again!
I want to get what I wanted and this time I won't let it go easily!
♥ Sunday, September 04, 2011
September 3, 2011
Hug!
It's funny to say what a hug can do.
For each one that you give out, you receive one in return.
A hug is a greeting when we meet to say hello,
Or to say goodbye when we have to go;
It can hold us up when life gets us down,
And make us smile, instead of frown.
A hug is a wonderful gift to share,
A way to show each other that we care;
There is so much a hug is able to do,
When you feel those arms holding you.
A hug is a place to feel safe and warm,
A comfort for a sad heart that is torn;
A hug is free!
It cost nothing, yet mean so much to me.
Hug a friend!
Hug a pet!
Hug a tree!
Hug the world!
♥ Saturday, September 03, 2011